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Monday, July 8

The Final Piece

The Final Piece by Maggi Myers
My rating: 5 Amazing Stars

The Final Piece









~Detach. Float away. I tell myself as I let my mind go numb.~


Rough, Remarkable an Unapologetically heart-wrenching!

Maggie Myers writes about an extremely difficult subject but treated it with respect.
Leaving you with a heart breaking experience whether this subject has touched you life or not. I felt everything Beth felt.

~ Panic mixed with dread spreads inside me, infecting every fibre of self worth and esteem. I can't see it; I only feel it as the happiness leaves my body in a dizzying rush. It bleeds out of me like I've been gutted with a dull knife. My spiral into despair feels like slow motion, but in reality, it's just a matter of seconds.~


Beth is suffering abuse at the hands of family friend and neglect from her parents.
Beth confides in her mother about the abuse, thinking she will save her.

"He hugs you and what? Does he tickle you, Beth?" She mocks me. "Jesus Christ, Beth everyone gets tickled at some point?"

To say first few chapters were intense would be an understatement. I pretty much held my hand over my chest praying for relief.

Beth's saviour comes from Tommy, a close family friend who has always been a father/uncle figure to her. After discovering what has unfolded, Beth is taken back to her home town with Tommy, her uncle, aunt and to her grandparents.
Beth embarks on a journey of healing far from the horrors of her home. In her darkest moments, she meets a boy named Ryan.
Spending one summer together, Beth and Ryan's friendship turns to first love.

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However road to life takes them in different directions.
Beth moves on with her life, healing in time. Friendships form and life takes her forward with the decision of letting love back in.

10 yrs later and a tragedy brings Beth and Ryan together again.
Both Beth and Ryan haven't gotten over their first love and emotions come forth bringing all truths out.

~ There aren't many times in life you get the opportunity to come full circle, and I can't help but feel like life is telling me to grab on this time an never let go. ~

~In the end, there really is not a choice. I have been his since our first encounter under the cherry tree and, no matter how frightening, I know Ryan is worth the risk.~

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My heart felt heavy all the way through with Beth, her journey of suffering and pain to love and life, to firsts and living and letting go of the past so it no longer holds power over her.

Truly a Beautiful story.
This is a must read!

~ Together forever, never apart. Maybe in distance but never in heart. ~



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Falling into You

Falling Into You by Jasinda Wilder
My rating: 5 AMAZING Stars

Falling Into You
















I'm a wreck, I have just been torn down and stripped of all emotions.
I can't even begin to describe how much I loved this book. It went above & beyond any expectation I had.
It is absolutely one of the best books that I've read this year, Jasinda Wilder is brilliant and her writing is just incredible. This book made me feel every word, every touch, every gut wrenching emotion in this story. From the first page to the last sentence.

Falling into You is a beautiful yet Heartbreaking story about a girl, Nell.

When Nell's boyfriend Kyle dies suddenly in a tragic accident, Nell is forever changed.


"I wanted nothing more than to climb into the box with him and quit breathing, find him in whatever came after life."



At the funeral is where we meet Colton, Kyles older brother.
As Nell goes through the days after Kyle's death, Colton is the one that Nell opens up to.
There is as undeniable connection between the two that both try to ignore.

2 Years later in New York City
Nell is reunited with Colt
Colton realizes that, Nell has never really gotten over Kyle’s death. She still has not grieved for Kyle.
She holds on to the pain, guilt and regret by dealing with them in her own unhealthy way.
He knows he shouldn’t get involved, but he can’t help himself. He wants to help her.


~"You need to let yourself feel. Feel it, own it. Then move on."
"You make it sound so easy." Bitterness drips from each syllable.
"It's not. It's the fucking hardest thing a person can do."~



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~"Feel. grieve. Let yourself feel all the anger at the fact that he was taken from you. Feel the loss of him. Feel the sadness and the missing him. Don't block it out, don't cut so it so stops, don't drink yourself numb. just sit and let it all rip you apart And then get up and keep breathing. One breath at a time. One day at a time. Wake up, and be shredded. Cry for a while. Then stop crying and go about your day. You're not okay, but you're alive and you will be okay, someday."~



Colt has his own demons, he is dealing with a past of regret, loss and deals with
Together they are painful, mess.
They have been through so much hurt, they can see it in each other.
He can relate and knows what Nell needs to do to heal her deep wounds.


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Only when she lets go of her guilt can she slowly start the process of grieving.


~It's violent, I don't even know how long she sobs. Time ceases to pass, and she cries cries, cries. Clutches me and makes these sounds of a soul being ripped in two, the grief so long denied taking it's toll. ~



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Their Journey is… I just don't know how to express it to you. It's beyond words. Its an emotion, a feeling, a journey to someplace no one should take. Your heart is pounding and all these emotions rise up the back of your throat only to get stuck.


Together they slowly heal.
They both feel closer to each other than with anyone else before.


~"I'm still trying to find the words to heal you,
To take your pain and make it all my own
So your beautiful eyes can smile,
So you can be at peace.
And now that Fate has intervened,
Conspired to draw us together,
I can't resist the lure of your eyes,
The temptation of you beauty,
The siren song of you voice
Wispering my name
In the dark comfort between my sheets.
I can't resist you, baby,
Because I'm falling still,
I'm falling into you."~


But with that comes the guilt. The guilt of Kyle
However this is real.
It's life, it's truth and you won't expect anything else.


~"There's no magical healing in this. I won't wake up tomorrow fixed and joyful. I'll still hurt and grieve.
But moments like this, with Colton? They make it all bearable. He doesnt fix me, doesn't heal me. He just makes life worthwhile. he helps me remember to breathe, shows me how to smile again. he kisses me and I can forget pain."~


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I loved it, couldn't put it down.
I haven't cried so hard, so much in one book!
The song he wrote in the hospital….
NO words just an absolute blubbering mess.

Jasinda Wilder AMAZING!! I'm in awe.
Her song writing.... It speaks to you.
I have read books with references to songs and artists before and never really drew on that.
But with Falling into you, it makes you stop and listen. I was on my Itunes listening after each reference and feeling the words.
This is a must read for everybody!


~"I'm not just falling in love with you, Nell. I'm falling into you. You're an ocean, and I'm falling in, drowning in the depths of who you are. "~




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